I am still engaged in the process of spiritual discernment that I mentioned a little over a week ago. It's still going well, though I have to admit that it's not going quite as well for me as the first week did. We've had some out-of-the-ordinary kind of craziness going on, my routine is off, and I just don't typically do well with this kind of thing when I'm out of my routine.
I love being in the midst of something like this, being in community with others doing something similar, intentionally listening for answers to the same questions. I really feel a closeness with God that I love and long for. That's why I don't understand -- if I love it so much, if it's so good and meaningful, why is it so hard to do it everyday?! I don't know, but it really is... I'm constantly amazed at the patience God has for his children.
But, even with all of that said, I did have what I feel was a pretty significant experience last week that I would like to share.
Our spiritual discipline for one day of each week is to play with and/or listen to your kids. So, as they were playing, I was listening. This is what I heard that really stood out. Conner, as he was trying to play with Micah, but Micah was ignoring him: "Micah, would you please listen to my jokes? Don't you want to fill my bucket? Besides, it will fill your bucket too, remember?" (We had just had a lesson at a worship gathering about how doing something nice for others fills their "bucket" -- and usually fills your own "bucket" at the same time.)
And later I heard this: Conner, praying for the Chappotins and brand-new Baby Hudson, after I had been ooh-ing and ahh-ing over him: "Dear God, thank you for Mrs. Heidi having a baby. Thank you for Mrs. Heidi having a beautiful baby. Thank you for Mommy really, really, really, really, really liking soft baby hair. In Jesus name, Amen." I didn't even know he was listening.
And so, what I heard from my kids today, what I heard the Spirit telling me through my children: Kids want to be listened to, and kids are listening to adults even when we don't know it. God even uses what these kids say to teach the adults sometimes. I felt that was pretty significant in regards to the question we were asking last week. God is cool.